I have taught most my life. I have three younger sisters, two of which were born at the same time 11 years after me. They have always told me that they look to me as their second mama, and it's true based on the texts and calls I receive. I love my sisters :)
Professionally I teach too. It is more one on one with either my staff or the public. Half of what I do is teach, the other half is enforce. Giving presentations professionally is a form of teaching that sends me into anxiety. Once I begin I'm fine. I think? I've presented at meetings, mostly to my peers or subordinates and I've even given a presentation or two to those further up the totem pole. I've been in Public Health since 2001 but I still loathe getting in front of a group of people. I spend all of this time preparing, practicing, writing, and developing to find myself speed talking into a stupefied oblivion. I have been presenting to my Board of Health for two and a half years but I still walk in pitting out, face white as a sheet, not smiling, and fidgeting for the entire meeting until it is my turn to present. Sitting still is almost, or heck, it IS impossible. I have worn spots on all of my shoes, the right heel of each shoe, where I sit there and shake. Most of the time it is pointed out by others as I don't realize I'm doing it. Let's just say if I had gum it would be embarrassing.
As a mother, I also teach but this style is much differently. Patience is virtue they say.
My friend Michelle asked me to be part of a Women's Study Group. Little did I know she would offer up the lessons to the group so each member attending can have a chance at teaching as they gain a closer connection with the Lord. Not quite sure how I feel about this just yet but I may try.
I'm an introverted thinker. Very introverted. One on one is my thing. Groups of people make me crazy as I seem to transform from a very confident person, comfortable in my own skin, into this very quiet-introverted- run-now-while-you-have-the-chance kind of girl. I cannot help it. The more I get to know people, the more I open up but it takes a lot for me to develop trust. I've had an interesting life...which has made me this way.
I decided I would try a different attempt at teaching to help me along the way. With my head in the sand, I will document this study group that I plan to give 100% of myself and dedication. And in doing so I plan to extend HIS teachings to others who cannot attend the meetings--as I decide which sessions I will teach. I hope. ;-)
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